The Crack

Several weeks more of little or no intimacy and sex.... I feel like a Michaelangelo statue of a male nude, that every week has someone come past and chisel off a bit more of its male features. Only with more human and real warmth and longing. As I've been very patient, supportive and understanding in this respect for sometime, and sensed the occasional positive response to hugs over the last couple of days, this morning I took the huge risk of stroking my hand softly up her thigh towards bliss. Bad move; her thigh jerked away, aggressive body language making her angry rejection very clear;

bad boy.

The hurt and rejection I feel is crushing. Don't have any coping mechanisms left .... Can't deal with being celibate in a relationship .... Although anger follows the hurt, still love her .... What am I supposed to do ?

Tumblr

Am I the only person who's seen Kat-a-tat-tat's tumblr (and also flickr feed) ? Oh my there's something amazing about her photography and modeling - entrancing doesn't cover it. It's like you're there and in the moment with her awareness of self, and her view of herself is accurately aware of her beauty (which kinda adds to her confidence which of course adds even more to her beauty and it's a vortex ...) A girl you'd want to be, let alone be in...? Is this how it is to be female?